REACTING TO MY OLD WRITING PT. 1 // ft. lots of embarrassment

i’ve always been a writer.

writing has constantly been one of my all-time favorite things to do: ever since i was little, i used to scribble words down on the page in the hope that they would form eloquent stories. 

so, i was going through some old Google Docs the other day when i stumbled across a couple of stories that i had written in ELEMENTARY school! 

but to say that these stories were eloquent would be the Overstatement Of The Year™. i was in fourth grade when i wrote most of them, so i could definitely tell how my writing has improved since then…

and of course, i’ve decided to embarrass myself in front of all of YOU as well by starting a new series on my blog in which i react to my old writing! this should be fun…

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THE DETAILS:

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i’m starting this series by reacting to just ONE story over the span of around 5 blog posts, as the story is 4,000 words long and i don’t want y’all to have to read a 6,00 word blog post haha.

the story is titled “Lost In The Snow” and was written by me when i was in fourth grade! *nervous gulp* you can see all of its stats over on the left.

each post, i’ll react to 2 pages of the story, and in the final post, i’ll react to the last 3 pages!

let’s just get right into this mess post…

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what is this font and color formatting?? i have no idea what would have caused my younger self to write in this atrocious font and BRIGHT PURPLE FONT COLOR. like, how am i even supposed to read it?!

yet i somehow managed to get through reading it all! here are my reactions to the actual content of the first four paragraphs…

  • why why why did i italicize the ENTIRE first line of dialogue? it looks so weird hahaha
  • i remember, i used to always start stories with dialogue because i thought it was the only good hook out there… 😳😳
  • ok, but the dialogue in paragraph 3 has a colon in it, and the person speaking is probably a 5 year-old. ugh.
  • i guess i’m just going to keep talking about dialogue, because a lot of this dialogue is unnecessary! it reads like it’s very scripted instead of organic.

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  • can we just ignore the fact that this entire first paragraph is just info-dumping? please??
  • oh, more strange dialogue! 🤦‍♀️ i remember that Sophie talked about this in her (very amazing!!) post about writing tips that you should all read, but when we’re younger, school teaches us to not use the word “said” when describing dialogue. and, of course, i just had to use ONLY synonyms of “said’ for dialogue in all my writing back then! this was something that made my writing look VERY juvenile.
  • also, for some reason, i only wrote straight, white characters when i was younger! (there’s nothing wrong with writing these characters sometimes, but please write diverse characters as well!!) i’ve definitely grown out of this by now, but reading old writing makes me sad, as i can’t believe i rarely used to express my own culture through writing.

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  • “Now, let’s make breakfast!” < am i writing a story or a how-to piece with transitions …?
  • oh, wow, i actually used the word “said” for the dialogue!! (look at me contradicting myself) but it still looks a bit juvenile, as the actual dialogue itself is just so boring.
  • i used WAY too many exclamation points in my writing back then 😅😂

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  • another thing i’ve noticed so far is that my writing mostly runs on dialogue. 
  • i’m constantly using dialogue to fill in as description! i probably thought that doing this would make the descriptions “smoother,” but it ended up doing just the opposite…
  • We turned to look at Fluff,” is the last (and very boring) sentence of the first two pages, but we’ve reached the end for this first installment in the series! here are my final thoughts…

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OVERALL:

like i admitted above, i think i underestimated my old writing! i wasn’t *utterly horrified* with anything other than my formatting choices. however, this story could obviously use some improvement!

i don’t want anyone to be thinking “oh, she’s so self-deprecating and negative,” because all my commentary is for fun and to see how different my writing was back then! one of the main ideas i had with what i wanted this series to convey is the numerous lessons i’ve learned about writing over the years, and the only way we learn from our mistakes is to look back and grow from them.

i’m planning on sharing all the lessons and final verdicts in the last post of this series, so stay tuned for that!

honestly, i’m pretty happy with my fourth grader self, because at least i actually wrote stuff back then instead of procrastinating working on my WIPs. *pointed glare at my present self*

i hope that you enjoyed reading this, i’m really excited to share the rest of the series with you!!

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have you ever gone back to read old stories? do you ever use atrocious font + color combinations? what do you think of ‘Lost In The Snow’ so far?

 
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68 thoughts on “REACTING TO MY OLD WRITING PT. 1 // ft. lots of embarrassment”

  1. This was so much fun to read! The story was so adorable, and honestly, for a fourth grader, this is positively gold! I look back at my stories from just a year ago and cringe so hard, let alone stories I wrote under the age of 10 hahaha!
    Loved reading this!

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  2. This is actually really good for a fourth grader! I remember rereading my elementary school writing, and while I didn’t write in colors, I wrote in crazy fonts and used Word Art (in MS Word). It’s always so entertaining to look back at your growth when it comes to anything! (also I legitimately never wrote about humans, it was always animals or dinosaurs or dragons or even sentient planets… those were the days XD)

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    1. awww thank you!! 💖💖 haha yes, the crazy fonts were such an… interesting… phase of mine. 😅 oh, i think i used Word Art as well when i was really little! those were definitely the days hehe. and YES, i’ve very excited to see how i’ve changed through this series. and oh my gosh that sounds so adorable!!! 🥺😂

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  3. You wrote this in 4TH GRADE??? *is shocked* Wow, that’s actually impressive! But you’ve definitely come a long way since then. XD

    Haha, yesss, the crazy fonts. XD I remember I was writing a diary-entry-type story, and I used this weird script font that I still regret to this day. XD

    Love this post, Ash! I can’t wait for the next part in the series! 😀

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    1. awwww thank you!! 😂💖💖 (hehe it’s been quite the ride!) and oh my goodness, i used to do that all the time, but just the thought of doing it now makes me shudder… i’m perfectly fine using Georgia or Times New Roman! i’m so glad you enjoyed this, Nicole, thank you! ❤

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  4. This post was so amusing, I loved it! For some reason when you’re seven years old you think you’re the best at writing, but several years later it’s terrible. I suppose that’s how the childhood charm works, you don’t have to worry about being the best.

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  5. this is amazing because i relate to so many aspects of that – i also wasn’t allowed to use the word “said” and all my old lil stories began with dialogue! i can totally see my 4th grade self in your writing … it’s almost nostalgic 😛
    this was so fun to read! can’t wait for the next parts :))
    power to the local dreamer ||-//

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  6. ahh! I used to write exactly like this, I believed the info dumps were the COOLEST thing in the world! I remember I wrote a story about a few friends that snowboarded down a mountain and ended up getting stuck on a lake, with orcas in…. veryyyyy believable! 😂

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    1. oh my gosh yessss, i relied on info-dumps way too much back then!! 😅 and aw, your story sounds so cute! i was just hit with a ton of memories of the hundreds of unrealistic stories i’ve written too 😂 thanks so much for reading, Emma! 💖💖

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  7. This is such a fun post and like you said it is nice to see how we have changed and we need to see past mistakes to learn from them. But it can also be fun. I think I definitely relied heavily on dialogue in the past and didn’t know how to enhance pieces through descriptions. Also I would take tangents all the time and write about unnecessary things !! Young me loved a quirky font as well. 😉
    And yes the fear of said was real 😂 (thanks for the shout out 💛💛 You’re so sweet 💕 all your kind words mean the world)
    Great post. I look forward to the rest of the series !!! 💛💛

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    1. thank you so much, Sophie!! yes, i’m so excited to see what i can learn from my old writing. 😉 and haha i’m glad you could relate to all of that!! also, you’re so right – i think about 99% of this story is unnecessary information. 😅

      aww of course! you brought up so many amazing points in that post, i had to include it!!! 💕💕 and thank you ahhh!!!

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  8. Hahahhaha no this is much better than my absolutely atrocious mermish story (it’s sooo badddddd) (tho my friend and I co-wrote it so some of the awfulness is purely hers) (but the problem is I can’t tell whose is whose soooo)
    I can’t wait for your next post starring this cause it’s hilarious!
    May the force be with you!

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  9. First of all, you have a beautiful blog! I’m in love with all your graphics.
    I had so much fun reading this! I also used to put entire paragraphs in italics because my 13 year old self somehow thought it looked good😂
    It’s so good to look back and see the beginnings of our writing journey and get to laugh it out. Great post✨💖

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  10. GIRL THIS IS HILARIOUS!! You were an amazingly talented fourth grader and this writing is really good! I’ve seen people our age with worse writing XD. AND OMG I TOTALLY RELATE TO USING DIALOGUE AS HOOKS! Even now around half of my stories start with dialogue but I used to start evERY chapter and evERY story with dialogue 😳😅
    Also are we twins?! My writing was exactly like this and we both had the same issues in them! I relate to never using “said”, info-dumping SO MUCH, using weird formatting that makes no sense to me now (like why Comic Sans of all fonts?! and why neon blue?) as well as always writing straight, white characters (it frustrates me beyond end when people still do that! Thank you for including that note about diversity!!). Twins or what?! 😯
    Okay, this was so much fun to read and I would totally love to do this idea if I can find some old writing that I haven’t shared before and if it’s okay with you 😉

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    1. haha awww thank you so much!!!! 😂😂 also OMG WHATTTT WE ARE SO TWINS!!!!! i remember that we’ve always related to each other in previous posts so this is craaaazy!! 😅 i can totally agree, i relied on dialogue way too much, had a TERRIBLE fonts phase (*horrified gasp* Comic Sans whattt!), and had no diversity at all in my writing. awww of course! ❤ it definitely frustrates me too 😔

      thank youuuuu!!! 💖💖 also, YES i would love to see you do it!! 😉

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  11. I used to use the font i think it was called Lucinda handwriting, and looking at my old typing now im just sitting there cringing at the colours an font. I would also put a gradient over the writing and that made it even more difficult to read

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  12. Haha, this was so much fun to read 💖 And tbh, if this is your 4th-grade writing, you must be a legend today!! I kind of thought the font was cute lol (i always used curly fonts, and one of my stories had red text…), and the story is adorable, but I feel you! I was looking back on my writing the other day from my 10 year oldish days, and I’m literally dying. The cringe is too much 😂😅 I also used synonyms for “said” because teachers always said not to…which I don’t understand. It makes more sense to use it than to say “cried”, “exclaimed”, “murmured”, etc every few lines.

    I’m probably going to do my own post similar to this, and it’ll honestly be so much fun to critique my younger writing. Thanks for the inspiration ✨

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    1. haha awww thank you!!! (ooh, honestly SAME with the fonts and awful colors, i think another one of my older stories was also written in red font color…) i’m so glad you can relate. and right?! i have no idea why teachers think “said” is a bad word to use lol!! 😅😅

      oh, have fun!! thanks so much for reading 💖💖

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  13. this post was so fun, ash! i definitely relate a lot to the embarrassing old writing docs — i have folders in my google drive called “cringy don’t ever look at” and “not good but better” so i only look at them when i’m strong enough 😭😭 and i also relate to what you said about only ever writing straight white characters! it definitely all goes back to only being exposed to those kinds of characters in the books i read and just picking it up from them :((

    also YES about the thing about teachers telling you to never use “said”! i’d use so many synonyms back then, but now i use said at least 80% of the time lmao. i get why they’d want us to use different words, but there are so many other ways to really show the way you’re saying things, and also it’s very distracting to read some random word like “stipulated” lmao

    great post! ❤

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    1. thank you!! i’m so glad you can agree (omg i should totally rename my folders that, mine are just called things like “old writing” haha) and yes i totally agree with you!! it’s so sad that we were rarely exposed to diverse books at a younger age. 😔

      lol yessss!! i think that everyone had that phase where they tried to avoid writing ‘said’ when they were younger, and i’m so happy that we grew out of it. right?!! lmaooo ‘stipulated’ is such a weird word, i totally get your point 😅😅 thank you so much again, May!! 💖💖

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    1. thank you SO much, Olivia!!! i’m so happy you enjoyed it aww!! 😊 i’m definitely going to be posting more parts to the series very soon, so all i can say is that the rest of the story is… interesting. 😂❤

      also, i am SO sorry about responding to this so late, for some reason it went to my spam folder (*facepalm) and WP doesn’t notify you of “spam” comments?? so sorry again!!

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  14. i love this idea! admittedly reading my old writing makes me cringe but this was so nice to read! especially since it’s really fun seeing how much you’ve improved 🙂

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  15. this post made me laugh *so* much, your writing was absolutely golden. back in fourth grade, my writing was an insult to the word itself (we don’t talk about that xD) so yours is actually really nice! 😀 i can’t imagine how nostalgic this was and reading your commentary brought back memoriesss. what i like to do sometimes is take an old/trashy writing piece with (with absolutely atrocious fonts smh hahah) from a while back and rewrite it! i love the idea of reflecting back on it every now and then, always adding and tweaking :))

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    1. ahh i’m so happy you enjoyed this post, Vaishnavi!! 💖 also noooooooo – if your writing back then was even 0.1% as good as your writing is now, it would still be PERFECT!!! 😍😍

      yes, it was definitely very nostalgic to go back and read this and remember things about my fourth grade self. 😅 also, that is SUCH a cool idea omg!! (lol gotta love the horrible fonts) i love the idea of rewriting your old writing. 😊

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  16. Haha that was so much fun😂😂 I don’t have many stories written as a kid but I have diaries and oh my gosh I literally die due to embarrassment sometimes😂 Half the time I wouldn’t know how to explain the whole deal (which would be something like not liking today’s dinner😂) and it’s just a mess😂🙄🙄🙈❤

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  17. I used to always start stories with dialogue too because the English teacher I had when I was 10 said it was a good way to start a story. I’ve since gotten a BA in creative writing so I feel like now I know there are plenty of good ways to start a story. And I don’t know why school teachers have such a problem with using “said”, it’s a perfectly valid word to use! I’ve lost a lot of my old writing and I’m kind of glad about that because I’m sure they were so terrible 😂

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    1. yesss same with me!! haha yes i’m sure everyone’s past self used to start every story with dialogue and never use ‘said,’ i’m so glad that we’ve changed from that!! and lol 😂😂 thanks so much for reading! 💖

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  18. Oh my gosh this was so fun to read and your story was so cute!! The fact that I have like 50 stories in my Google drive that I wrote from ages 10-14ish and a lot of them are also written in odd cursive-y fonts and in colors…I could relate to this post for sure.😅(My favorite thing to do back in the day was find all my favorite “handwriting” fonts on google drive and then write diary entries for my characters using the cursive fonts. I’m pretty sure 75% of my stories started off with a diary entry and then the “action” started when they got called to dinner or something.) Anyway, I really enjoyed reading this and I look forward to future installments of this series!!

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    1. ahhh thank you!! oh my goodness i can totally relate, i guess we just loved the handwriting fonts! 😅 (wait i used to do that too! nowadays, i literally cringe every time i see something like Lucida Handwriting or Oregano or Dancing Script ugh 😂) i’m really happy to hear that you enjoyed this and could relate, Olivia, thank you so much! 💖💖

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  19. Shoutout to my atrocious formatting choices when I was twelve and that time I used lilac font on a black background for God knows why! I remember when I was young i had a big vocabulary but I wasn’t very good at applying it, which made for some…interesting writing choices when I was younger. From what I remember, I’m pretty sure my old stories look like I vomited a thesaurus XD (I was a very dialogue-heavy writer when I was young, too. I pretty much decided that I did not need description, which was…not a good decision lmao. I’ve learned since then, though. I’m still bad at description, but I try.) Anyway, I think your old writing is adorable. I love the sisters and the dog! This story is just so cute 😭

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    1. hahaha SAME!!! oh my gosh i can 1000% relate: i relied on the thesaurus heavily but it just made my writing sound so immature lmao 😂 (lol that’s exactly what i thought too about dialogue!!!) and aw thank you so much, i’m so happy you liked it! 😅💖💖

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  20. Ahhhhh this reminds me so much of the stories *I* wrote in elementary and middle school lol!! Old writing is cute, if a bit cringey. XD Yours was honestly so fun to read, though! With a SOLID commentary. ;D

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    1. aw i’m so glad you enjoyed it!! i definitely agree, i was cringing while reading this… but it was also kind of nice to feel all the nostalgia from elementary school and laugh at my stories. 😅 ahhhh thank you so much, Lila!! 💖💖

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  21. I absolutely love this, Ash, it’s hilarious and for a fourth grader, your writing was actually quite good. Heheh, thank you for this post, it was amazing!

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  22. this was so much fun to read!! it (almost) makes me want to delve into my high school nanowrimo folder and check out what I worked out. tbh I burst out laughing when I saw the purple colored font because SAME – I used to change colors for every character’s dialogue…it was a rainbow mess 😂😂

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    1. thank you so much!! 💖 haha you should definitely try it – reading this was pretty hard but also hilarious. 😂 and yessss someone else who used a huge rainbow of font colors… 😅 i’m so glad you could relate lol!

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  23. Omg it’s so brave to share your writing online, especially the older stuff. I’d say it’s pretty good for fourth grade ☺️ your font colour reminds me of a disaster I had with homework when I was in school. I left printing it until last minute and the only colour it would print without streaks was pink 🙈 so not good!! Although totally unintentional 😅 surprisingly I don’t think anything was said about it.

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      1. My essay content was too perfect to comment on its pinkness? 😂 Idk. Maybe I explained when I handed it in, I can’t remember for sure. The horror of having to hand in pink homework is the part that really stuck with me.

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